“Hemlock, 1956,” a Poem by Victoria Chang
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A wooden door in front of everything. A door on my country. A door in the lake. My poems prefer wooden hunting dogs. If I say there is a door on my heart in the poem, then there is. Now
A wooden door in front of everything. A door
on my country. A door in the lake. My poems
prefer wooden hunting dogs. If I say there is a
door on my heart in the poem, then there is.
Now I can open this door. The door is a short
door though. I must kneel down to crawl in, drag
my body through with my wooden elbows.
I bump into my wooden mother who is also
crawling in my heart. She smiles so large that
her suffering lights up the tunnel. I can now
see my whole heart, not empty as I had thought.
There are no people in it but my mother.
A rotten hemlock tree at the beginning of the
aorta. A eucalyptus at the end. Two black Allen’s
hummingbirds. She tells me to feed my father.
I don’t have the heart to tell her that near the
end, his brain had so many holes, you could look
right through it. I promise her that I will try to love
someone as much as I love her, so she doesn’t
spend her death alone. She hands me a Tupperware
with rice and bok choy to give to my father. I cat
the food because he must be in someone else’s
heart. Next to a fetus. I am lost in my own heart
now. I sit in the corner and count red.
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Excerpted from Tree of Knowledge: Poems by Victoria Chang. Published by Farrar, Straus and Giroux. Copyright © 2026 by Victoria Chang. All rights reserved